Last Night I asked my friends on Facebook to give me some poem topics and for everyone that they gave me I would post it here on this site… this is what I came up with… Enjoy…

At War With Life (Poem Topic: War)

It’s funny how what I inspire to be

Isn’t inspiring me…

It kinda makes me question what I desire to be…

Or is it society

Or some hire being

That’s…

Driving me…

To lose passion…

For something that ignites the fire in me…

It’s like not being at peace with someone you love…

But you love them so much…

You can’t give them up…

So WHAT…!

Do you suggest I do?

Stay and be miserable

Or leave and be…

Miserable…

Right now time is critical

My life is reaching a pivotal

Point…

And I clearly make it a point…

For so many to join…

But I can’t make them follow if they choose not to be led…

So I’m a one man army…

Starving to be fed…

I’m alive

But why do I feel dead…?

I swear I’m so far ahead

That my shadow gets mislead…

I just need time to clear my head…

Rethink my strategy…

Because Life’s harsh realities…

Will smother you

If you approach things casually…

And I’ve worked to hard to give it away gradually…

So it’s best I stop

Before I bloom a new casualty…

See I plan to be…

The rose amongst thorns…

The calm and the storm…

The victor of the battle unarmed…

So I ask that they make space for me

While I’m gone…

Cuz I’m coming back…

I Can’t Love her (Poem Topic: Wanting to love someone but the things they do you just cant love them for)

She represents everything that I’m not…

Yet there is this attraction to her that I can’t explain

And I want to love her

Like flowers in a desert love rain

But I can’t…

She embodies everything I despise…

But when I look into her eyes I see an innocent child

That never got the chance to grow up…

And I just wanna love her

But I can’t…

She symbolizes everything I dislike…

How does that saying go?

You can’t turn a hoe into a housewife…

Not to call her a hoe but she is a prostitute

And I wanna tell her I love you

But I can’t…

She represents everything I’m against…

I’m not on the fence about it

Nor am I running from it

I would love to love this woman

But her lifestyle is keeping her from me

This isn’t pretty woman

Nor am I the guy to try and change her

Maybe I could

But remember I’m a stranger

Not one of her tricks

But the cop that always arrest her for it…

See I wanna love her…

But I can’t…

Its hard Trying to be a Father (Poem Topic: Baby Momma Drama)

I’m trying my best to be the best parent that I can

But for some reason her mother won’t give me that chance

Making me feel less than a man

And I’m continuously degraded by her fam…

I fight day and night

For the right

To hold my baby girl…

Her mother didn’t bring her alone in this world

She just gave birth to her…

What gives her the right to say when and where I can see my child.

And why is the court system so fucked up now?

No it’s been that way

But what I mean to say

Is…

I should have every right

Despite the fact that we’re not together…

But a man gets no respect in these courts

She put me on child support

For a child I support…

I child that I love more than myself

A child I can hear silently screaming for help…

Cuz her mother aint shit

And she never will be.

And I don’t appreciate all the men she brings…

Around my daughter

GOT DAMMIT!

I’m her father…

I need a better lawyer

The more I think about it

The more frustrated I get

This shit I did not wish

It was a mutual reason that we split

So why should I suffer for it…

Her mother’s full of shit…

Trying to make me seem unfit

All I get is visitation rights

Mad because I never made her my wife…

I should have never came in her that night…

Know what…

I take that back

Cuz my baby girl is hear from that…

Let me be calm

Skip the baby momma drama

And make sure my lil girl knows her dad…

P.S. FUCK HER MOMMMA…

I’m not helping (Poem Topic: watching your best friend get effed over by the woman he loves and not being able to tell him anything about it because it hurts his feelings? Yet when you joke about it instead of getting mad about it, he doesn't want to talk to you for days. Then he tells you that you must think his life is a joke because he really wanted your advice but instead you made jokes. But you only made jokes because it really makes you mad to watch him let her treat him like that.)

I can’t tell him the truth so I joke which is close to it…

Trying to throw hints

But he doesn’t get them

Nor does he find my jokes funny…

I’m trying to warn him about his woman…

But how can I do that without hurting his feelings or sounding like a hater…

See she’s trying to play him…

And he has his suspicions

And when I joke about an instance

He simply

Gets mad and doesn’t talk to me for days and nights

See he needs my advice

But I’m not giving it to him right

I’m trying to make light…

Of the situation…

Trying to save him…

From humiliation…

Plus I know he’ll go crazy

When he finds out his lady

Is messing round with other men almost on a daily basis…

Maybe…

I should just come real

And be like look here…

But I fear he won’t listen…

I try to tell him indirectly

Hoping he gets it

But he just gets mad

While her ass

Continues to trick him…

So im positioned…

In the middle…

Maybe I should leave well enough alone…

Let him figure things out on his own…

Selfish or Not (poem Topic: having sex with you b/c the one you Love won't give it to you from a woman's point of view)

I know that I’m wrong…

But someday I hope the world can forgive me

And he can as well…

Perhaps I’m only thinking of self

Or maybe he isn’t thinking of me…

Whatever the case may be…

I have needs

I’m not the one driven by greed…

All I ask is that my man satisfies me…

Sexually…

And look at me…

Not to sound conceited…

But this woman

Can give any man reason

To sleep with…

Her…

Without even trying…

So why does he deny me…

Is it something I’m doing

Or is it something he’s doing…

Behind my back…

Not trying to find out

I…

Chose to sleep around…

He wasn’t wearing his crown

So what was I to do…

I yearned for his affection

And he wouldn’t make a move

So I moved

And this new dude

Is cool

Smooth

And aware of my situation

We both are in the same boat

Cuz he has a lady…

So we are in agreement

It is what it is…

We spend a few hours together

And back home it is…

I don’t know where he lives

And he doesn’t know where I live as well…

I won’t tell

If you won’t tell

Is what we tell…

Each other…

Betraying our true lovers

To satisfy who we truly love

Ourselves

So are we wrong for thinking of self?

Or are they wrong for not thinking of us…

Maybe we should end things with them

Or end things between us…

But see all we have is that sexual connection

So we wouldn’t work

And leaving our lovers would hurt

So we do what we have to…

Selfish or not…

Hoping we don’t get caught…

The world doesn’t need four more broken hearts…

So we do our part…

It keep this…

our little secret…

Happily Married (Poem Topic: Marriage)

We’ve been married for 15 yrs

We have our ups and downs but we are still hear

We look at our peers

And wonder

What went wrong…

You see

Our house is a home

Built strong

With love

Trust

Passion

Dedication

Communication

Loyalty

Honesty

Support

And compromising…

We don’t always agree

But we don’t argue without eventually rationalizing…

The situation

Me and my wife have the patience…

We’re determined to make it…

And we make it…

Brand new…

Not a thing we’re not willing to do

Or try…

The sex life is forever alive…

We experiment with new things…

Still fulfilling fantasies…

Before we used to travel the world

Now with our kids

We take them along with us…

This is true love

What marriage is about…

We fight

We fuss

Even throw stuff

Cuss

But we make up

Make love

And there is no other place we would rather be

Than next to each other

At night in the comfort of our bed

Between covers and sheets…

Cuz we…

Are…

Happily…

Married…

Supernatural Sex (Poem Topic: absolute mind blowing sex so great, its supernatural.)

I swear she is possessed

When flesh

Meets flesh

She fucks me to death

And I return the favor…

We awake the dead

Fuck the neighbors

This is the shit that makes toes curl

And stiffen

As if its

Rigor mortis…

When Inside her

Her spirit

Takes over…

me…

So I know what she wants

And she knows what I need…

Under sheets

Like ghost

Eyes popping out of sockets

As she screams

And yell

Scratch and curse

And I dig and ram

Making her black kitty purr

Speaking words

That can conjure

The freakiest of spirits…

This that supernatural

Unimaginable

Sex…

That eyes roll behind your head

Lost of breath

Need water after you finish…

Sex…

She fucks me to death

And I return the favor…

We awake the dead

Fuck the neighbors…

And we kill it every time…

Five years Later (Poem Topic: finding out that ur five yr old is not for u it’s for another man)

MANNNNN!

WHAT THE FUCK!!!
this can’t be happening to me right now

Ok…

Calm down

No wait…

FUCK THAT…!

FUCK MAN…!

My head is killing me

I can’t believe this…

Shit…

You mean to tell me after five years that lil boy isn’t my kid…

Not my son…

My lil one

My offspring

The one I support

And she didn’t tell me in fear of a divorce

What’s gonna stop me now from going to court

O I know the love we have…

I’ll be damn

That lil boy calls me dad

And im not his dad

FUCK THAT!

I am…

I helped raise him these five years…

Where does his real father live...?

I’m here

Not him…

And his mother…

As much as I love her

I don’t think I can forgive her for this

This shit is sick

She could have been told me

Maybe things would have been different

But her selfishness

Will finally come to our ending…

Because I can’t look at her

Love her

Without being hurt…

Fuck…

I’m hurt…

And nothing can stop these tears from falling from my eyes

I can’t believe she told me I’m not the guy

And that it was some other guy…

She waited five…

FIVE!

LORD WHY!

I swear a part of me just died…

That isn’t my child…

But I love lil man so much

I have to be his father now…

We even share the same last name…

She gave him my first name…

HE’S MY JUNIOR…!

WHY DIDN’T SHE TELL ME SOONER…!

But you know what

I won’t hate her…

She’ll get what should have come to her…

Five years later…

Dill Pickles and Thong Sandals (Poem Topic: Dill pickles and thong sandals/ Washington monument)

Some days my life is like dill pickles and thong sandals

In other words random

Things that happen

I never fathom

Nor do I plan them

Like I said…

It’s just random…

It is as significant as the Washington monument

Yet trying to find it

Is like trying to time it

And life really has no schedule

So things that happen just happen

The time of day or place doesn’t matter…

I walk this earth

Which started about a year after birth

Trying to understand my worth

Doing whatever I had to, to not get cursed…

Out…

Cuz the people I know have a foul mouth

I just go on my own route

And things just happen at random…

Like I said

My life is like dill pickles and thong sandals…

Your First true Love (Poem Topic: Getting ur first love)

Nothing compares to its feeling

And when you get it

You know that it’s real

I remember it like it was yesterday…

They were all I would think about

Sometimes I still think about

Us…

The love we shared

Nothing has yet compared….

It’s a feeling that gives you butterflies

Every time you look into their eyes

You feel it…

Their names become passwords

You stop hanging with friends

They move in

You move in

Yall live…

Together…

And when things get bad

It hurts

And not just any hurt

It hurts…

That’s how you know its love…

You wouldn’t be in that much pain if you didn’t

But in the ending you find it being worth the feeling

Because the good times outweigh the bad…

So many people try to drag…

Knowing what they had…

Was great

Until someone made a mistake…

So for whatever reason it didn’t work

Nothing will ever compare to finding your first…

True love…

TRACKLIST:

Intro    6:14     

Rodney's Intro    0:34     

I Am Poetry    1:17   

Beavis & Butthead Skit    0:43   

This Poem Is Dedicated To You    2:14        

Phone Call Interuption By Tig   0:52   

Dreamin    2:40   

I wanna have sex with you    1:59   

Tig's Interuption    0:19   

Love Rollercoaster    1:53   

Guilty Concious    1:52     

Don't Be A Menace Skit    0:21    

The Most High    4:39        

Feel My Pain A Homeless Story    3:19       

Pshychotic    2:24   

Rodney Interlude    0:37         

To my future wife    1:29      

Tig Interupts again    0:34    

I Gotta Be Like That    1:35      

All On Me    1:17          

Ms.Yesterday    1:47          

The Tease    2:17     

I Just wanna  Ft. Dappa  3:58          

Tig's Interlude    0:34         

Decleration of Inde PEN Dance    1:42       

Outro    5:40      

 

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Peace

John L.

I mean… not to sound conceited

But I understand your reason for thinking she might leave and come back to me…

See…

Her telling you about me was her biggest mistake…

She told you about the places we would date…

Her birthdays…

And several other occasions where we did more than…

Foreplay…

Trust me…

I know how you feel…

But on the real…

Homie you need to chill…

Cuz all those insecurities are causing your pressure to build…

You felt the need to come here and question me…

About me and my ex…

No we’re not still having sex

Cuz I know that’s your biggest threat…

To be honest with you she’s my biggest regret…

But I won’t bash on your ol’ lady cuz it’s obvious to me that you love her…

But brother…

Be good to that woman and don’t worry about me…

I don’t call her

Text her

Or even speak…

She’s nothing to me…

But a memory…

Yes our love was deep…

But obviously it wasn’t deep enough to keep us together…

She found something better…

The time yall have you should treasure…

Don’t measure yall relationship on things we did…

We’re not together for a reason…

And that reason she probably never told you because she’s smart…

I know her…

You probably hold the key to her heart…

She doesn’t want what we went through to tear yall apart…

So if you’re smart…

You would leave here…

And never come back again…

Cuz next time I might not be a gentleman about this…

She puts a permanent smile on my face…

So today…

This poem is for her…

It started off as a crush

And when I told her wazzup

She blushed…

Ever since then it’s been us.

She is who I trust.

My heart is for her.

And her heart is for me.

And together we are living what most, dream…

She stimulates me mentally

I love her like she’s kin to me…

And love is like common sense to me

So I love her to like the 10 degree.

F that there’s no measuring

Our love is infinity…

In reality we…

Argue like most do…

But there is nothing we go through

That love doesn’t show through…

We show proof

That true love exists…

Nothing fairytale about it…

In a world that’s crowded

We don’t feel surrounded

We’re floating

Yet grounded

Together for years and counting…

She’s the reason I can’t wait to go home…

Naa…

She’s the reason my favorite place is at home…

The two of us alone…

Wrapped in each other’s arms…

And for me

That once was unknown…

I can’t lie…

I used to hate cuddling…

But now there is nothing more comforting…

She is the essence of what being a woman means…

I would call her queen

But goddess seems more fitting…

Carefully drawn with god’s pen…

Every detail is highlighted by her brown skin…

Her beauty stands out and within…

More than anything,

I’m happy to call her friend…

Together we blend…

And ever since then…

Meaning the day we decided to make thing’s official…

My life seems to be less fickle…

She’s not a dime

Quarter

Penny

Or nickel…

She’s priceless and original…

Her presence is almost spiritual…

I truly love this individual…

Her coming into my life is an ongoing miracle…

Now I can continue to…

Talk about her…

But…

She’s at home waiting for me…

I wrote a poem dedicated to the 2009 New Orleans Saints team titled "Who Are We" I sent it to the news papers they have yet to pick it up hopefully they do... Let's go Saints! WHO DAT!?








Who are We

New Orleans doesn't need to be dissected for the world to know it bleeds black & gold...
Not only the heart beat of our city...
Saints you are our soul...
We scream WHO DAT!?
But we know...
No team can beat them SAINTS!
Especially in the Superdome
Your home turf.
Where thousands of fans put yall first.
On Sundays the WHO DAT NATION is always in congregation
Ready for praising...
GOD BLESS YOU BOYS indeed...
As we watch Drew Brees toy with the other teams.
There's no stopping once the ball goes to Shockey
Marques Colston stays open.
You know it’s a score if thrown to Lance Moore...
Over 20 yards is a given if thrown to Devery Henderson
And the opponent’s defense has to look if we even fake it to Reggie Bush…
He can’t be overlooked…
And the defense is much sharper
Now that we added Darren Sharper…
And let’s not forget we still have Roman Harper…
Jabari Greer has receivers in tears…
And it’s best you run another route
Cuz it’s Tracy Porter’s house…
Jonathan Vilma will tackle the building…
Will Smith and Charles Grant
Has QB’s in a trance…
QB’s don’t know they are hit…
But realize it after the pick 6…
Thank god for Sean Payton and Gregg Williams…
They are the foundation
The strength
No tearing down this building…
Cuz WHO ARE WE?
SAINTS!
WHO ARE WE?
SAINTS!
And we are ready to bring home those rings
Have the world second lining
With Tom Benson…
The number 1 team without a question…
New Orleans’ very own blessing…
And I can’t wait to call all my friends and tell them…
This years super bowl champs are the Saints…
I might wear black and gold for a year straight…
Cuz I love my team
Like I love my city…
Wherever you are…
Scream WHO DAT!?
If you’re with me…




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WHO DAT NATION STAND UP!

WHO DAT!? WHO DAT!? WHO DAT SAID THEY GONE BEAT DEM SAINTS!?

~Still His Children~

Exposing a glimpse through
Most of our struggles are unjustified but justifiably true
Sitting back watching as those materially superior pollute
My Father’s children who are so far gone they forget the gifts they’ve been given to use.

White teez, reez and can’t forget girbaud jeans; I grow
Admiration for a thug who allowed knowledge and Father’s grace to seep through, revealing his soul’s thrust for actuality and truth
This world isn’t meant for you to be swallowed and chewed But for strength to be your stool, praise Him through your tears and all wounds
Not allowing your temptations to make you the enemies’ fool
Concept never really easy to take to
Concrete walls generationally built to physically and mentally contain you
Keeping you down to the point of bunched up crabs you are viewed
Crescent shaped bowl you are stewed
Internally sucking life out of those around you
Starting with his grandmother you sold crack to
Viewing yourself to be so real, the epitome of cool
Luping Fiascolly through school but yet you have a point to prove
Using other’s weakness for your latter step tool
Sweety, Elevation starts within you!
Claim the role you are suppose to hold & Take heed to your Father’s voice, cuz if not you’ll set yourself up for eternal swim it that cesspool of souls!!!

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DAMN SHE SO COLD,
SO BEAUTIFUL,
SO GODLY,
SO SEXY,
SO EVERYTHING
THAT…
WHEN WE GET MARRIED INSTEAD OF HER HAVING MINES I WANT HER LAST NAME
SEE I’M…
PAST GAMES
DONE DRIVING THE FAST LANE
I…
MOVED OVER TWO…
SOON…
I WILL BE AT MY EXIT…
NEXT STOP
HER PLACE
AS MY HEART NAVIGATES
LEADING ME ALL THE WAY TO LOVE…
AND DAMN WHAT A JOURNEY.
EXPERIENCE IS LEARNING
AND I LEARNED SO MUCH FROM DATING
THAT…
I KNOW THIS LADY
IS…
THE ONE…
THE SUNSHINE THAT WAKES ME IN THE MORNING
AND THANK GOD I HAVE THIS BEAUTIFUL DARK SKIN
SO I’M ABLE TO ABSORB HER BRIGHTNESS.
I LIKE THIS
SHE PUTS THIS
PERMANENT SMILE ON MY FACE.
SO MANY WOMEN I USE TO CHASE…
FINALLY I DON’T HAV TO RUN
CUZ SEE…
SHE CAME TO ME…
AND WE CAME TO BE…
THE OPPOSITE ENDS OF A FAMILY TREE…
NOW ALL LEFT TO DO IS PLANT THAT SEED…
BRANCH OFF AND GROW LEAVES…
CREATING A FOREST THAT RESEMBLES ME…
AND HER…
THIS WOMAN’S WORTH
IS WORTH
EVERYTHING ON EARTH
AND I’LL TRY MY BEST TO GIVE IT
I’M BLESSED
MY SPIRIT
HAS BEEN LIFTED
I PRAYED
PRAYED
ASKED FOR FORGIVENESS
AND THE LORD HAS GIVEN THIS.
HEAVENLY GIFT
IN THE FEMININE FORM
THE CALM
AFTER THE STORM
THE…
REBUILDING OF ME
SEE…
SHE…
MAKES ME BETTER…
MY…
UMBRELLA.
THE FEATHERS TO MY WINGS ENABLING ME TO FLY
BUT FEELS LIKE IM FLOATING
MY…
CHOCOLATE SKIN’S GLOWING.
NO LONGER HOPING
I…
KNOW SHE’S…
THE ONE…

Confessions of a Mistress

Im trying my best to gain his total interest
I guess it’s what I get for being the mistress
His…
Booty call when wifey won’t act right…
His bed to lay in last night
Becuz of their huge fight…
See…
My mind is psyched…
I know that he loves me…
And it’s that, that keeps me falling…
For him…
I’m his bitch…
His ride or die…
Empty out the clip…
Take the charge…
Bitch…
I even suck his dick better than his chick…
Excuse my French…
So what is it?
Am I giving him too much?
Should I give up?
No I can’t…
He keeps telling me…
“Sooner or later it’s gonna be us”
That’s together…
He even said my pussy gets wetter…
I told him “bae you can forget her”
He always say “but we have kids together”
I just cry…
Cuz I wanna have his baby…
I know it sounds crazy…
But I really wanna have his baby…
Even if he never decides to leave her for me…
It would be…
Like he’s still with me…
Because I’d be the mother of his seed…
His kiss is so refreshing…
Lets me know he holds me close to his heart…
I told him me and you will never part…
Sometimes I wanna start shit…
To break up him and his chick…
But then that might fuck up my position…
I feel it will backfire and bring them closer…
So I play the bench
Hoping he lets me in the game…
I make sure he remembers my name…
But still it’s not the same…
I SHOULD BE HIS MAIN!
I mean…
One and only…
I swear I’m so lonely…
I know we can make this work…
Wayne & Drake’s song reverse
“I can take yo man”
Is what I chant…
While doin the Salt & Pepa Dance…
I just want a Real Chance
At love…
This is my reality not VH1…
He’s the only man I want…
If not him there’s none…
He hit’s my sweet spot…
Drunkin love not wanting to detox…
He delivers the mail and stays in my inbox…
So why not?
Should I…
Not…
Want to be with him…
And why should he not…
Wanna leave his chick?
Answers I don’t know…
I guess I should just play my position…
As his mistress…

Karma is a bitch… Confessions of a Mistress Pt. 2

So I finally decided to kick it...
Was tired of being his mistress
This decision...
Wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be...
Especially after finding my prince charming...
Well...
So he seemed...
But before I get into that...
Let me tell you how we met...
It was at a club...
He was fresh as the fuck...
Told me wassup...
Said I looked familiar...
I was bucked up...
I said really...
He said "yea, didn’t you go to Dillard"
I was like no that was my sister...
Anyway to make a long story short...
We started dating...
The sex is crazy...
And I’m having his baby...
I’m 4 months pregnant...
At first it felt like a blessing
Now it’s so upsetting...
So I was checking my facebook...
And pops up an instant message...
It’s his laptop so...
It was him this person was addressing...
It stated "hey my love… what are you doing online? After the fun we had last night you should still be tired"
From an mshot4u2002...
So I played it cool
Maybe it’s nothing...
Can’t automatically assume they're fucking...
So I responded "last night was wild... What ru doing right now?"
She sent a smile and said...
"Thinking of you... R we still on for dis afternoon?"
So I sent "yea can't wait to see you"
She sent "great! I can’t wait to taste you again. Imagine my lips wrapped around ur dick..." and a fuckin smiley face...
So I’m pissed...
Cuz I used to be that chick...
The crazy part is...
This bitch knows about me...
Cuz we kept messaging...
And she said something about "I bet your girl won’t do you like I do"
Once again I’m playing the fool...
Doesn’t feel so good when the shit is happening to you...
I swear I'm sick...
Should I take my lick?
Or pack my shit?
My past life
flipped…
Karma’s a bitch…
And she’s sucking “MY DICK!”
What a twist…
This is on some Jerry Springer…
R. Kelly…
Trapped in the Closet…
Type…
SHIT!
I never fathomed this…
Wearing the shoes of the female I once screwed…
Was fucking her man…
Now someone is fucking mine…
I don’t know if I should be angry
Or just cry…
DEAR LORD WHY!
Maybe if I wasn’t pregnant it wouldn’t hurt so much…
How can there be a future for us, when he’s doin this stuff?
It’s driving me nuts…
I don’t know
Maybe I should give up…

Full Circle... Confessions of a Mistress Pt. 3(the end of the trilogy) since everyone requested it...

So where do I begin...
A cheatin husband
Who I thought was my friend...
The mother of his kids...
And lover to the end...
But he fucked over me again and again...
I tried to be strong but I gave in...
I'm stayin with him...
But no longer will I play the fool...
If he wants to fuck over me I'ma do it too...
See I met this dude...
Real cool...
Dress nice...
Teeth white...
Plus he also had a wife...
Or girl...
Or something like that...
So we can do what we do with no strings attached...
So one night we hooked up...
I already had it on my mind...
I was aggressive...
I didn’t hesitate to suck and fuck...
I had alot of anger pinned up...
And I took it out on him...
Well his dick...
He was like "shit"
See dat night I was his mistress...
And he was my quick fix...
He made me forget shit...
Like a cheating husband...
I mean I don’t love him...
But I think I may keep him around...
So I sent him a message...
Askin him when we were gonna hook up again...
Im talkin dirty messages...
I wanted to taste him again...
I wanted his strong hands wrapped around my waist again...
I wanted to relive this fantasy again...
A great night of passion...
With...
Him...
So we were scheduled to meet at 10...
I got on my best outfit over my best outfit...
A sundress with no underwear...
Easy access...
Looked my best...
Got a penthouse suite...
At one of the best hotels in the city...
I looked pretty...
Make up done...
Hair straightened
I was almost gonna wait naked...
But I figured it’ll turn him on more to see I had nothing on underneath...
I was gonna be his freak...
See...
I brought out the 6 inch heels...
O the thrill...
I was catching chills...
Playing with myself...
Getting wet...
I was imagining him...
SHIT!
So out of my element...
I felt free...
I felt free of everything...
But at 12:30
I noticed he was never coming...
Come to find out the whole time I was messaging his woman...
I did all this for nothing...
I knew it was something...
But I figured he was tryin to make me wait...
You know...
Anticipate...
Boy was I played...
But Fuck it...
That's what I get for trying to be like my husband...
The one I’m in love with...
Guess it was really a fantasy...
Or was it?

I used to say I could neva get a girl like you
And every girl in the school liked me but you…
Still I held on this crush till my palms read you
I used to wish upon a star till this dream came true…
And who knew
After years pass
02’ class
Grew up fast…
No mo’ ass chasin
My mind focused on fast paper…
I would run into you like damn…
“Well hi stranger…”
“What you been doin…”
“I been workin… That hard labor”
Anyway
Numbers exchanged
I tried to maintain
The back of my brain
Was goin insane
You remembered my name…
And thank god I was single at the time
Because my ex would never let that situation fly…
To let you walk by…
NA! NA! I couldn’t do that…
Blind to my eyes
I swear I couldn’t view that…
With that.
I called you and got reacquainted
Our convo was entertaining
I started explaining
Perfect pictures painted…
We made arrangements to meet up…
I laid back with my feet up…
Brushin off my shoulders
Like THAT’S ME! WHAT!
Over at your place
Our first date
You said we should stay in
And become better friends…
You said you like the privacy
And public places tend to be distractive…
Well that top that you had on was distractive…
I swear to you them D-cups girl was lookin very active…
I wanted you to loosen up and put them thangs in action…
So I asked it…
Subliminally…
The next thing I know them titties was just smothering me…
Start to havin sex im lovin it
You lovin on me…
We had a good time
If I recall
you bust about three…
well three weeks later
brings us to today…
I called you just to say…
Doctor said that I got aids…

It had to be from you…

(Erykah Badu slowly playing in the background, loud thunder and rain… Now what am I supposed to do, when I want you in my world? (want you in my world…) and how can I want you for myself when I’m already someone’s girl… I guess I see you next lifetime…)

And I constantly have this song on repeat…
Cuz all I can think about is her Sayin this to me…
Why did we meet?
Breaking up a happy home, I am first to disagree…
But I’m trapped in the middle of my morals and what I need…
So I scream…
And the thunder echoes…
The rain drops add to the mood I’m in…
Dark clouds shadow my mind…
Cuz I …
Want you…
This lifetime…
So tell me what am I supposed to do…
I wish Ms. Badu wrote a remix…
If these feelings are just a prefix of what’s to come…
Tomorrow can only get worst…
Or better…
Cuz I can tell that she wants me…
And I…
Want her too…
Where’s blue?
I need a clue…
Cuz her smile is tattooed…
NO!
Spray painted on the walls of my memory bank…
And every time I open my eyes I visualize
The time…
We spent together…
As friends…
But this friendship might have to end…
Cuz I can no longer pretend…
I wish she wasn’t with him…
And I respect her loyalty…
But damn I know deep down she wants me…
She tells me this all the time…
And all I could do is…
Smile…
And say yea I want you too…
Too bad you’re with somebody huh?
Then we both laugh it off…
Then pause…
Look up in the sky…
NAAAAA!!!
Knowing we can’t do anything…
Having enough respect for her current situation and all that…
But I’m passed the infatuation stage…
Past the liking stage…
I think I’m falling in love…
No I admit it…
I love her…
But I’m forced to be just a friend cuz she can’t leave him…

Now what am I supposed to do when I want you in my world? (want you in my world…) and how can I want you for myself when I’m already someone’s girl… I guess I see you next lifetime…)

You know I wish you could see what it does whenever I receive a call or text message from you…
My eyes light up like the skies on the fourth of July or New Years Eve even…
But this evening I’m not feeling too excited…
I tried but couldn’t hide it…
I fuckin’ love you…
True it might be too soon for you…
But…
I’m human and doctors can only attempt to explain why I feel this way…
Hmm (smirking)…
They say call a spade a spade…
But we was partners…
YOU RENEGED!!!
And if we never were…
Why even play in the first place…
Why even make those statements…
Please don’t tell me you used me selfishly as a replacement…
Cuz I didn’t sign up to be your pillow…
I was more like a love seat…
You said you loved me…
Then come with the It’s not you it’s me… shit…
And shit I never was the type to stress ova a Ms.
But I thought you was it
So I neglected those other chicks
Who was more than willing to let me hit…
But see that’s not what im bout…
So I chose the good route…
Which was you…
It’s a little past noon I shouldn’t even be in this mood…
What’s up with you…
See I still care bout how you feel
Cuz I’m real…
Maybe you’re just used to the fake
Or you’re just fake…
And I made the mistake…
Of putting my emotions on display…
For the world to see and you too…
I swear I’m confused…
This came out the blue…
Like a cop nude…
I swear if I knew
I would have changed shoes…
Instead of walking into my own upset…
So I don’t blame you for me feeling this way…
I’ll say dat much…
I didn’t give my all just to give up…
I do this for us…
What happened to what we discussed…
I’m sayin …

She’s not scared of Lions, and Tigers, and Bears…
But she’s scared of lovin me…

And I…
Just wanna give my all to her…
Cuz see she’s the reason I stopped hangin with the fellas
And the reason other women or jealous
So tell us why we’re not together like we should be…
We are too far behind of what we could be…
Her husband is what I would be…
But…
Forget the shoulda, coulda, woulda’s
I’m tryna put us…
Together Forever…
I want her last name to match my letters…
I wanna feel comfortable about writing her… love… letters…
I wanna be the salad dressing to her… lettuce…
Or at least just the salt and pepper…
I’m not like other men
I’ma step up
So…
Why are we not together like we should be…
We are too far behind of what we could be…
Her husband is what I would be…
See…
I know she’s not afraid of commitment…
It’s just the things that other men did
That left this imprint
On her senses
Leaving her defensive…
And she’s confused about my moves
So constantly I have to prove
I’m not like those other dudes…
Had to tell her…
All I want is you…
We’re getting to old to be just… boos…
And everything I do is brand new
So…
Why are we not together like we should be…
We are too far behind of what we could be…
Her husband is what I would be…

See…
I’m not scared of Lions, and Tigers, and Bears…
And I’m not scared of Loving you…

So I was bored and was tryin to think of a new way to spread my poetry Right... Being a major fan of the whole Hip-Hop mixtape thing, a light-bulb lit up over my head... I thought why not create a free downloadable book... sorta like a "mixtape" of what you will see in my retail books...
The Name of this Free book is "The I Write To... Teaser"
you can download it here: http://www.zshare.net/download/5920456848cb257e/

In this Corner we have Love making…
In the next corner we have sex…
In the last corner we have fucking…

For the thousands in attendance and the millions watching around the world…
Ladies and gentleman…
Laaa.aaa..aaaa.aaa
LET'S GET READY TO RUMBLE!!!!!

(Bell Rings… Ref Begins to announce the rules…)

Alright fellas, the three of you are here today to hopefully win a chance to satisfy the beautiful young lady of your choice. The rules are simple… each of you will get one round to do your thing… after the final round the judges will decide who's the winner…

Make Love… you're up first… GET UM!!!

While your off at work…
I'm at home preparing dinner…
Setting the table…
Lighting the candles…
Preparing your bath water…
I have the temperature just right cuz I know how you like your water to be hot…
You return home after a long day
I direct you to the kitchen…
Then I sit you in your chair and begin to massage your shoulders while listening to what happened today at work…
Afterwards I fix your plate and bring it to the table highlighted by the candles…
We eat and laugh and I tell you I have a surprise for you…
I can sense the anticipation so I slowly walk you to the bathroom…
I cover your eyes to let your imagination wonder…
Once we enter I tell you to take off your clothes and sit in the tub.
I have the bubbles goin and the candles around it just the way you like it…
I join you and we begin to clean each other's body…
As the soap suds run down your back I follow them with my eyes…
For some reason that shit is so sexy…
We hop out the tub…
I dry you off then myself…
I purposely didn't put any underwear in the bathroom because it would spoil the last surprise…
I walk you to the bedroom…
We enter…
Aroma therapy candles are at each bed post.
Roses replace what used to be sheets…
A lay you down and begin to caress your body with my hands…
My lips then follow…
Kissing you from head to toe…
Our bodies then form a union that we both can enjoy…
We make love until we climax…
Then fall asleep in each other's arm…


(Ref comes in…)

Ok…Ok… you bringing some heat to start this off…Now have sex what can you do to top that? GO!!

While make love is kissing you from head to toe…
The only toe I'm concerned with is that camel toe between your legs…
Crack them open like eggs and let me beat it…
Then eat it…
Then repeat it…
I guess you can call it…
Breakfast in bed…
See this is what wet dreams are made off…
Why make love
When you can have sex…
Get undressed…
Yes I will caress…
Molest…
Shit…
Anything to get you wet….
See I'm gonna test…
Do it fast
Then slow…
I'll pay attention to what turns you on more…
Cuz see I aim to please…
Sexually that is…
I can't cook dinner…
We can do take out…
Then make out…
I'll have you laid out…
Up all night like a steak out…
Forget what they say bout me…
Cuz I'm Safe…
Sex…
While you make love without latex…
He's makin love to his X…
And I stay protected
Satisfaction
Guaranteed.
Ribbed for your pleasure…
And yea I know sometimes it feels better…
But that's cuz you neva had sex with me.
I'm as tall as a tree
And plan to make you fall like leaves…
Then crawl like babies…
Then scream…
Then shout…
Stick it in…
Pull it out…
Turn you around…
Get on top…
Hit from the back
Make it fot…
Then make sure you cum so many times you lose count…
That's what I'm bout…

(In comes the ref…)

Ok back up have sex you proved your point. But it's not over. We still have one more round… Fucking I hope you're ready… Go In…

Fuck what they talking bout.
I'm down with straight fuckin…
I'm not your boyfriend or your husband
I'm nothing…
I'm just fucking…
Fuck all that foreplay…
Give me head and hope I return the favor…
I'm not tryin to make you scream to wake the neighbors
or put in any hard labor…
I'm tryin to get in then out…
I doubt you ever been with somebody like me…
Yea I'll pull ya hair…
And treat you like a real freak…
But at the end of the day…
I'm thinking bout me…
So I hope you get you…
I'm finish…
Quick and easy…

(Ref Steps in for the final time…)

Damn that was rough… Fucking… man… you don't care…
Well that's the end of the match…
Judges who will the winner be…
Is it Make Love?
Is it Have Sex?
Or the Brutal… Fucking?
I don't know it might be a tie…
Judges you decide...

My love for you was intoxicating...

And I would be lying if I said I hated

The way u took over…

I've been so drunk from you

I no longer remember being sober…



Come here baby let me hold ya…

Is what you used to tell me…

So close that you could smell me…

So close that you FELT ME!…



In places the world couldn't see…

But the world could see what you was doing to me…

Killing me…

Softly…



And I refused to stay sober…

Cared less about a hangover so I would hangover…

Even on days you left me at your house…

To be with your other spouse…



I would just sit there and let the Hennessey…

Erase the memory…

Of being fucked over

By a bullshit lover…



But at the time I couldn't discover…

Cuz I loved ya…

And you was what I needed…

So I refused to stay SOBER!



And those nights when it got colder…

The warmth from you would somehow crawl back into me

As you would enter me…

Like my pussy was your revolving door…



Unlike the whores you got head from,

What I had was sweet…

And you knew that

And I knew that

That's why I thought I could keep you with me…



But come to find out all that did was keep you…

Leaving me with this hangover…

So what's a girl like me to do?

Who's mind is stuck on me and you?

Like Lee would say…



Today I'm giving up this addiction…

The pain it has inflicted…

Is a total contradiction…

Of what we was supposed to be…



I want back the sober me…

Don't want you to keep control of me

Cuz you holding me

On left me…

With this hangover…



I refuse to hangover…

No longer need you to give closer

To these legs…

I got this…



I admit your love was intoxicating

But now I'm detoxing…

(MALE)
Saw her at the bar
Shorty body was the nicest
Way she stared at me
Couldn’t tell me she ain’t like me…
So I stepped to her.
Like…
Can I buy you a drink?
Gave me that look like man what do you think…
So I ordered that Ciroc
Had it cut with some cranberry
Baby look good
Swear she had everyman starin’
Ass phat
Tits right
Body like a porn star
Thick with it too
Like her momma fed her corn starch…
So I asked her name
And she said your wildest fantasy.
Flirtin’ real hard
I swear she could get it annually…
Actually her name was Christina
Tatted on her back
All I could think about was how I could be hittin’ that…
Asked her for the number
Couldn’t get it at the moment
So I asked why?
She said you’ll get it in the morning…
That struck a nerve
I started thinkin’ really could it be
Said take her home
I didn’t hesitate to grab my keys….
We hit the road she started kissin’ on my neck.
I told her chill before I wreck.
So then her hands went down my pants.
What happened next had me driven bout 4 miles per hours.
It felt so good I thought I could be driven miles for hours…
Get to her house
She picked her head up
Lead me to the door.
Threw all her clothes straight to the floor
Then said give her more…
Without patience
Stripped me naked
Decided to take it
She had me makin’ faces that I wasn’t used to makin’…
Had to take control cuz I ain’t wanna cum too quickly
She said hit me
I tapped her on the ass gently
She said harder
So harder I did it
Threw it back
I couldn’t miss it
Shorty fucked me like she with me…
After we finished
She kissed me
And said I’ll see you later.
I said later.
Hopefully that it be soon not later…

(FEMALE)
I saw him at the club
Flirted with him
It was easy
Lookin’ real cute
Outfit outta BeBe…
Knew it when he seen me
I could tell he liked me
Got him to buy drinks
He didn’t care about the prices…
Sippin’ on Ciroc and cranberry had me feelin right
At that point I didn’t care who took me home the night…
But I kept flirtin’ with him
Strokin’ daddy ego…
The way he was starin’ I could tell that he would need more…
Told him take me home
And we left the club instantly…
Can’t tell me shit
I’ma the muhfuckin’ pimpin queen…
Got in his car started kissin on his neck
I could tell he wanted sex
So my hand went down his pants.
I pulled it out
And started suckin’ just a lil bit.
Didn’t want to give him too much to make him spill quick.
Get to my house I had him screamin’ like a lil bitch.
Then he went to take over.
I ain’t feel shit...
I said harder
So harder he went…
Yea I felt a lil bit
So I backed up on it…
He couldn’t take it
Started shakin…
Like the ground was earth quaking…
I did a lil fakin’
Helped release his babies…
Kissed him
Told him see you later.
What he don’t know I played him.
I only one night um’
I don’t try to save um’

We can make love but before we even take it there…
I’m the type of man that appreciates the moments shared…
I can spend hours just running fingers through your hair…
Ask me any question baby
We can play truth or dare…
I ain’t neva scared
Not afraid to open up
Nothing fake about me
You will neva see me nip and tucked
Everything I tell you I don’t tell you just to get your stuff
And I don’t even try to make you happy
It is effortless…
To me it’s second nature
Kinda like breathing…
I knew about pleasing
Before I was even teething…
I’m sayin…
Really I’m not sayin that you need a man…
But if I’m passing out love
You should receive it then…
See I’m the type to text you every morn.
You know…
Right before the stretch
Or just after the yawn…
That’s cuz you mean a lot to me
You inspire my poems.
I might take singing lessons
Just to sing you a song…
I’m sayin…
I neva have to lie
Always stay faithful
If god gives me you then I’m grateful…
I can be playful
Just to make you smile and laugh
And I’m intelligent
I can help you out in class…
I wanna make it last…
Become your perfect match…
So I can heat you up and melt you like some candle wax…
If you cry I wanna wipe away your tears
And if you’re ever scared I’ll fight away your fears
To me you’re so fly
I’m talkin heights above your peers
I catch goose bumps anytime that you are near…
Smile anytime your name is even mentioned
I am here to listen
I will always pay attention…
I wanna make sure that food is on your plate…
Don’t wanna be too good of friend
You wouldn’t wanna date…
I’m sayin…
I’m all about you
I will go in…
I’m 99
Don’t settle for all these 1 percents…
I’ll be your husband
Friend
We can make up some shit…
I just wanna be the one you say you fuckin with…
And this is on a when you’re ready basis
Because I have patience
That’s how far I wanna take this…